Life Points

I'm not sure if I'm just having an emotional period or if life really is all that stressful.  I'm constantly in a state of worry that I'm forgetting to submit an assignment or take care of something at work.  I'm worried that I haven't fulfilled my duties as a worker, student, girlfriend, sister, daughter, and Christian.

This causes me to become flustered as I attempt to make sure that all of my life points are covered.

Last week was tough as I had a breaking point.  I cried while at work and as my friend/co-worker consoled me, she asked me what was wrong.  And I couldn't even formulate an answer.  I think I had reached a boiling point and didn't know how else to cope.

I'm slowly beginning to realize that I became preoccupied with what I thought were obligations.  It is not an obligation for me to read my Bible everyday just to assume status as a "good" Christian.  It is not an obligation for me to not make mistakes at work or in school to avoid being labeled a bad worker.  I had become so focused on being perfect that I forgot I was still living life.  A life, that I might add, will never be perfect.  I will never be perfect.  All I can do is make sure that I am trusting in God and doing what I can do live a full life, not a perfect one.

So, here's to my realization.  And here's to me making sure it becomes reality.